Its funny, I’ve thought about this blog post many times over the last two years. I thought about different ways of expressing the feeling of standing on the precipice and counting down to jumping into the big world. I thought that I might pop in a quote or two something to give a bit of gravitas, someone one else famous, who’s words that might capture this strange feeling better than I ever could.
A line from “Philadelphia Here I Come” that describes how Gar feels on the eve of his departure to America was apt I thought. It portrays how he watches madge, his surrogate mother, walk up the stairs for the last time and “keeps the camera running”, as the scene would be edited many times over the years until what’s left is pure gold. Many of those scenes have been recorded in the last week or so. So many goodbyes- hugs and pats on the back, and “take care now”s. All pure gold already, stored and filed in the vault to be re-played as snippets and provide comfort a reminder of my life.
The truth is though, its been such a hectic week, with lots of media engagements including a spot on the Six One News and Morning Ireland. That I haven’t had time to indulge feelings. Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately, there hasn’t been space for introspection. Instead, there has been a constant check list of “things to do”- people to talk to and emails to be sent.
It hasn’t been helped by a few unavoidable delay of some pretty important kit which will hopefully meet us en route over the next week.
I suspect, that the true sensation of embarking will only make itself felt after jumping headlong into the big wide world. That the full magnitude of our undertaking will be present only when we set off- that only when I feel the rush of air against my cheeks will I know what its like to actually jump.
For the moment however, there’s still so much to do…..